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August 10

spanish for gringos :P rofl

DVD 2
 
SPANISH FOR GRINGOS (Para que los Gringos aprendan  castellano) 
There's always something to learn. Sometimes you need to say some 
phrase in Spanish, but you don't know how to say it? Don't worry, 
your problems are over. If you'r a gringo and you don't know speak 
Spanish, we'll be helpful in your learning. For instance, we took 
some common phrases, just try and you're gonna see the difference
and how easy it is to speak Spanish.

                              
(léanlo en inglès, està genial!) 
 
1. Boy as n r = Voy a cenar = I'm gonna have a dinner 
 
2. N L C John = en el sillon = on the armchair

3. Be a hope and son = viejo panzon = fat old man 
 
4. Who and see to seek ago = Juancito se cagó = Little John is a  chickenshit.

(jajaja.. COÑO ESTA BUENO!!!) 
 
5. S toy tree stone = estoy triston = I'm kind a sad. 
 
6. Lost trap eat toss = los trapitos = the little rags. 
 
7. Desk can saw = descanso = (you) rest. 
 
8.As say toon as = aceitunas = olives. 
 
9. The head the star mall less stan dough = deje de estar molestando = stop bugging me. 
 
10.See eye = si hay = yes we have 
 
11. T n s free o ? = tienes frio = are you cold?

12. T N S L P P B N T S O = Tienes el pipi bien tieso = you have an erection. 
 
13. Tell o boy ah in cruise tar = Te lo voy a incrustar = I'm going to insert it in you


July 22

Como el Agua by Camaron de la Isla

limpiaba el agua del río
como la estrella de la mañana
limpiaba el cariño mío
el manantial de tu fuente clara
ay como el agua, ay como el agua, ay como el agua
como el agua clara
que baja del monte
así quiero verte
de día y de noche
ay como el agua, ay como el agua, ay como el agua
yo te eche mi brazo al hombro
pequeño brillo de luna
iluminaban tus ojos
de ti deseo to’ito el calor
pa’ ti mi cuerpo si lo quieres tu
fuego en la sangre 
nos corre a los dos
ay como el agua, ay como el agua, ay como el agua
si tus ojillos fueran aceitunitas verdes toda la noche estaría muele, que muele
muele que muele
toda la noche estaría muele que muele
muele que muele
luz del alma me adivina
que a mí me alumbra mi corazón
mi cuerpo alegre camina, por que de ti lleva la ilusión
ay como el agua, ay como el agua, ay como el agua
ay como el agua, ay como el agua, ay como el agua
 
ay como el agua, ay como el agua, ay como el agua
ay como el agua, ay como el agua, ay como el agua
ay como el agua, ay como el agua, ay como el agua
ay como el agua, ay como el agua, ay como el agua
lerelerelerelele
July 06

and yet another quote

wow oscar wilde :P rofl man u always got it

 

  • "Men always want to be a woman's first love - women like to be a man's last romance."
     -
    Oscar Wilde
  • June 21

    My dear daddy :P

    Mi muy queridisima hija, te amo tambien tanto que cada dia hablo de ti con algun bobo de por aca. Tambien tengo unas ganas terribles de verte y espero cada dia que pasa, que sean menos los dias en que este sin verte al menos un rato, jajajaja.
    Me alegro mucho que estes escribiendo y tambien aprovecho, como siempre, para hacerte ADVERTENCIAS.
    1-un escritor-escritora, no se hace en 2 meses de escritura, aun hoy NO se conoce una obra de la literatura que se haya escrito en un par de meses, nada mas. Eso lleva mucha dedicacion. Por eso, no lo abandones, no lo dejes de la mano, escribe cada dia como una regla. Asi lo hacia Ernest Hemingway. Se levantaba a las 5 de la madrugada, escribia 200 palabras y luego se iba a lo demas del dia. Asi lo hizo casi toda su vida, lo que pasa que cuando sumas, son varios millones de palabras que son VARIOS LIBROS.
    2-No creas CIEGAMENTE en todo lo que los demas te digan de lo que TU MISMA ESTES CREANDO, la creacion en si es un acto de sacrificio, y es casi muy parecido a un PARTO, si, asi es... primero, vas "incubando" dentro de ti una idea, la vas moldeando, la vas "construyendo", reinventandola, modificandola, y un dia, vas escribiendo unas lineas, otro dia otras lineas, y finalmente otro dia, PARES LA OBRA. Una vez que has parido, vienen los comentarios, unos, FABULOSOS, otros DEPRIMENTES...
    porque hay comentarios FABULOSOS y comentarios DEPRIMENTES?, cual de ellos tiene razon?, ambos?, ninguno?..
    ninguno es la opcion que siempre me ha parecido mas acertada. Unos te alaban para buscar cosas, acercamiento, simpatia, o simple adulacion, sin que realmente les llegue a importar MUCHISIMO, tu obra, otros, se averguanzan de no poder hacer ellos mismos una obra y en un arrebato de colera podrian llegar a decirte que lo que haces es pura MIERDA...
    no les creas, SOLO Y UNICAMENTE, CREETE A TI MISMA.
    ejemplos: Van Gogh murio miserable, nadie queria sus pinturas, al dias siguiente de su muerte, uno de sus cuadros se vendio en 6 mil francos, que es esa epoca era como decir, 60 mil dolares, y hoy, ese mismo cuadro, en 6 millones... QUIENES RODEABAN A VAN GOGH ERAN UNOS MISERABLES.
    otros no han hecho gran cosa, pero cualquiera con ganas de SER EL GRAN ADMIRADOR -vaya usted a saber por que razones- PUES le alaban, sin considerar que en la propia alabanza, podria estar el peor dano que se le cause a un artista como tu. Cuidate de ambos bandos. Mantente IMPACIBLE a toda oipinion exagerada. Aprende a "ver", de donde viene la critica u opinion y que trasfondo puede tener.
    Conoci a varios artistas que comenzaron realmente BIEN, pero los alabaron TANTO, que se frustraron y hoy, son DON nadies, sin capacidad de hacer una obra, porque YA NO TIENEN CERCA A LAS PERSONAS QUE LES APLAUDIAN CADA DIA.
    Es bueno y es rico que NOS APLAUDAN, pero mas sano es SABER DEJAR QUE LOS APLAUSOS O LAS TRIMPETILLAS, NOS RESBALEN SIN HACERNOS DANO.
    Sigue escribiendo, escribe cada dia, para ti. Esencialmente HAZLO PARA TI.
    Normalmente unb artista hace una obra EN PRIMER LUGAR, PARA SI MISMO, y si ademas a alguien le gustra, PUES BIENVENIDO SEA, pero,,,, de segundo... nunca que una opinion ajena te vaya a influir tanto que vayas a creerla 100 por ciento... MANTENTE LIMPIA.
    Y recibe de mi, un beso grande grande grande, como grande e inmenso es el amor y el carino que te tengo, junto a tus HORDAS de hermano y hermanas que desde aqui, te sienten cerca y te piensan y te quieren. (No es en valde que Camila toma tu foto del cuadrito que estas conmigo y dice: Mokina...Mokina...
    te amamos los de aca. Un beso bien grande y piensa en nosotros algunas noches, que nosotros tambien pensamos en ti.
    Muahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Tu otro PAPA.
    June 20

    I am not happy

    errr no idea why im pasting this maybe because i agree that happiness should not last forever anyhow is by paulo coelho
     
     
    I am not happy

         A comment that is very often heard in interviews is: “ ... and now that you are a happy person ...”, which provokes the immediate reaction: “Did I say I was happy?”
         I am not happy, and the quest for happiness as a principal objective is not part of my world. Of course, ever since I can remember, I have done what I felt like doing. That is why I was admitted three times to a psychiatric clinic, spent a few terrifying days in the dungeons of Brazil’s military dictatorship, and just as quickly lost and won friends and girlfriends. I walked down paths that, if I could turn back, I might avoid today, yet something always pushed me forward, and it certainly was not the quest for happiness. What interests me in life is curiosity, challenges, the good fight with its victories and defeats. I bear many a scar, but I also carry with me moments that never would have happened if I had not dared beyond my limits. I confront my fears and moments of loneliness, and I think that a happy person never goes through this.
          But that is of the least importance: I am content. And contentedness is not exactly a synonym of happiness, which to me seems like a dull Sunday afternoon without any challenges, just rest that in a couple of hours grows into tedium, the same evening television programs, the prospect of Monday waiting with its routine.
          I mention all this because I was surprised by the long leading article in one of the most prestigious magazines in the United States that is normally dedicated to political matters. The theme was: “The science of happiness: is it in our genetic system?” Aside from the usual things (tables of happier or less happy countries, sociological studies on man’s search for a meaning to life, eight steps to finding harmony), the article includes some interesting observations that for the very first time made me see that I am not alone in my ideas:
          A] - countries where income is under US$ 10,000 a year are countries where the majority of the population is unhappy. However, it was discovered that from that figure upwards, monetary difference is not all that important. A scientific study conducted on the 400 richest persons in the United States shows that they are only slightly happier than those who earn US$ 20,000. The logical consequence: of course, poverty is something unacceptable, but the old saying that “money does not bring happiness” is being proved in laboratories.
          B] – happiness is just another of the tricks that our genetic system plays on us to carry out its only role, which is the survival of the species. So, to force us to eat or make love, it is necessary to add an element called “pleasure”.
          C] - however happy people say they are, nobody is satisfied: we always have to be with the prettiest woman, buy a bigger house, change cars, desire what we do not have. This is also a subtle manifestation of the instinct of survival: at the moment when everyone feels completely happy, no-one will dare to do anything different and the world will stop evolving.
          D] therefore, both on the physical plane (eating, making love) and on the emotional plane (always wanting something we do not have), the evolution of humanity has dictated one important and fundamental rule: happiness cannot last. It will always be made of moments, so we can never get comfortable in an armchair and just contemplate the world.
          Conclusion: better forget this idea of seeking happiness at any cost and look for more interesting things like unknown seas, strangers, provocative thoughts, risky experiences. Only in this way will we live our human condition to the full and contribute to a more harmonious civilization at peace with other cultures. Of course, everything has a price, but it is worth paying.

    June 12

    ...A light from within

    People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.
    - Elisabeth Kubler-Ross. Swiss-American psychiatrist and author
    June 11

    Could I be you...

    Could I Be You Lyrics

    by Matchbox 20

     
     
     
    something is wrong
    with the sum of us
    that i can't seem to erase
    how can i be
    the only one
    without a smile on my face
    when now

    you're laughing out loud
    at just the thought of being alive
    and i was wondering
    could i just be you tonight

    you show your pain
    like it really hurts
    and i can't even
    start to feel mine
    and i'm standing in place
    with my head first
    and i shake i shake i shake
    and i see your progress
    stretched out for miles
    and miles

    and you're laughing out loud
    at just the thought of being alive
    and i was wondering
    could i just be you tonight

    this is the sound that i make
    these are the words i chose
    but somehow the right thing to say
    just won't come out

    cuz you're laughing out loud
    at just the thought of being alive
    and i was wondering
    could i just be you tonigiht
    i was wondering
    could i just be you
    tonight
    June 10

    meh nothing

    For example, according to a 2005 Pew Research poll, 42 percent of Americans believe that "life on Earth has existed in its present form since the beginning of time."
     
    stupid guys eh?
    from the vatica and the telescopes
    June 06

    Bright Lights - Matchbox...

    She got out of town on the railway, new york bound
    Took all except my name
    Another alien on broadway
    Well, some things in this world you just cant change
    Some things you cant see until it gets too late

    [chorus]

    Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
    Who will save me from all Im up against out in this world
    And maybe, maybe, maybe
    Youll find something thats enough to keep you
    But if the bright lights dont receive you
    You should turn yourself around and come on home

    I got a hole in me now
    I got a scar I can talk about
    She keeps a picture of me in her apartment in the city
    But some things in this world
    Man, they dont make sense
    Some things you dont leave until they leave you
    And then the things that you miss, you say

    [chorus]

    Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
    Who will save me from all Im up against out in this world
    And maybe, maybe, maybe
    Youll find something thats enough to keep you
    But if the bright lights dont receive you
    You should turn yourself around and come on home

    Let that city take you in (come on home)
    Let that city spit you out (come on home)
    Let that city take you down, yeah
    For God sakes turn around

    [chorus]

    Baby, baby, baby when all your love is gone
    Who will save me from all Im up against out in this world
    Yeah well, maybe, maybe, maybe
    Youll find something thats enough to keep you
    But if the bright lights dont receive you
    Well, turn yourself around and come on home

    Yeah, come on home
    Baby, baby, baby, baby
    Come on home
    Yeah, come on home
    Yeah, come on home
    Yeah, come on home
    Baby, baby, baby, baby
    Come on home
    May 26

    The Ballad of Reading Gaol

    This mind of mine is failing me again I thought I had posted this...weelllll here I go:
     
     

    I love this ballad if you don’t want to read it all since it is extremely long – 17 pages – hey I read it! – you can just do this:

    Your building is on fire and you are in an extreme hurry read only this Yet each man kills the thing he loves,

    Lazy mood read only this and the ones before The man had killed the thing he loved,

    You definitely hate reading but you think I’m cute so you would do anything I’ll ask….or almost read only this and the ones before I never saw a man who looked

     


    And so he had to die.

     

    Á¢he Ballad of Âeading Gaol

    By Oscar Wilde

     

    He did not wear his scarlet coat,
    For blood and wine are red,
    And blood and wine were on his hands
    When they found him with the dead,
    The poor dead woman whom he loved,
    And murdered in her bed.

    He walked amongst the Trial Men
    In a suit of shabby gray;
    A cricket cap was on his head,
    And his step seemed light and gay;
    But I never saw a man who looked
    So wistfully at the day.

    I never saw a man who looked
    With such a wistful eye
    Upon that little tent of blue
    Which prisoners call the sky,
    And at every drifting cloud that went
    With sails of silver by.

    I walked, with other souls in pain,
    Within another ring,
    And was wondering if the man had done
    A great or little thing,
    When a voice behind me whispered low,
    "That fellow's got to swing."

    Dear Christ! the very prison walls
    Suddenly seemed to reel,
    And the sky above my head became
    Like a casque of scorching steel;
    And, though I was a soul in pain,
    My pain I could not feel.

    I only knew what haunted thought
    Quickened his step, and why
    He looked upon the garish day
    With such a wistful eye;
    The man had killed the thing he loved,
    And so he had to die.

    Yet each man kills the thing he loves,
    By each let this be heard,
    Some do it with a bitter look,
    Some with a flattering word,
    The coward does it with a kiss,
    The brave man with a sword!

    Some kill their love when they are young,
    And some when they are old;
    Some strangle with the hands of Lust,
    Some with the hands of Gold:
    The kindest use a knife, because
    The dead so soon grow cold.

    Some love too little, some too long,
    Some sell, and others buy;
    Some do the deed with many tears,
    And some without a sigh:
    For each man kills the thing he loves,
    Yet each man does not die.

    He does not die a death of shame
    On a day of dark disgrace,
    Nor have a noose about his neck,
    Nor a cloth upon his face,
    Nor drop feet foremost through the floor
    Into an empty space.

    He does not sit with silent men
    Who watch him night and day;
    Who watch him when he tries to weep,
    And when he tries to pray;
    Who watch him lest himself should rob
    The prison of its prey.

    He does not wake at dawn to see
    Dread figures throng his room,
    The shivering Chaplain robed in white,
    The Sheriff stern with gloom,
    And the Governor all in shiny black,
    With the yellow face of Doom.

    He does not rise in piteous haste
    To put on convict-clothes,
    While some coarse-mouthed Doctor gloats, and notes
    Each new and nerve-twitched pose,
    Fingering a watch whose little ticks
    Are like horrible hammer-blows.

    He does not feel that sickening thirst
    That sands one's throat, before
    The hangman with his gardener's gloves
    Comes through the padded door,
    And binds one with three leathern thongs,
    That the throat may thirst no more.

    He does not bend his head to hear
    The Burial Office read,
    Nor, while the anguish of his soul
    Tells him he is not dead,
    Cross his own coffin, as he moves
    Into the hideous shed.

    He does not stare upon the air
    Through a little roof of glass:
    He does not pray with lips of clay
    For his agony to pass;

    Nor feel upon his shuddering cheek
    The kiss of Caiaphas.

    II

    Six weeks the guardsman walked the yard,
    In the suit of shabby gray:
    His cricket cap was on his head,
    And his step was light and gay,
    But I never saw a man who looked
    So wistfully at the day.

    I never saw a man who looked
    With such a wistful eye
    Upon that little tent of blue
    Which prisoners call the sky,
    And at every wandering cloud that trailed
    Its raveled fleeces by.

    He did not wring his hands, as do
    Those witless men who dare
    To try to rear the changeling Hope
    In the cave of black Despair:
    He only looked upon the sun,
    And drank the morning air.

    He did not wring his hands nor weep,
    Nor did he peek or pine,
    But he drank the air as though it held
    Some healthful anodyne;
    With open mouth he drank the sun
    As though it had been wine!

    And I and all the souls in pain,
    Who tramped the other ring,
    Forgot if we ourselves had done
    A great or little thing,
    And watched with gaze of dull amaze
    The man who had to swing.

    For strange it was to see him pass
    With a step so light and gay,
    And strange it was to see him look
    So wistfully at the day,
    And strange it was to think that he
    Had such a debt to pay.

    The oak and elm have pleasant leaves
    That in the spring-time shoot:
    But grim to see is the gallows-tree,
    With its adder-bitten root,
    And, green or dry, a man must die
    Before it bears its fruit!

    The loftiest place is the seat of grace
    For which all worldlings try:
    But who would stand in hempen band
    Upon a scaffold high,
    And through a murderer's collar take
    His last look at the sky?

    It is sweet to dance to violins
    When Love and Life are fair:

    To dance to flutes, to dance to lutes
    Is delicate and rare:
    But it is not sweet with nimble feet
    To dance upon the air!

    So with curious eyes and sick surmise
    We watched him day by day,
    And wondered if each one of us
    Would end the self-same way,
    For none can tell to what red Hell
    His sightless soul may stray.

    At last the dead man walked no more
    Amongst the Trial Men,
    And I knew that he was standing up
    In the black dock's dreadful pen,
    And that never would I see his face
    For weal or woe again.

    Like two doomed ships that pass in storm
    We had crossed each other's way:
    But we made no sign, we said no word,
    We had no word to say;

    For we did not meet in the holy night,
    But in the shameful day.

    A prison wall was round us both,
    Two outcast men we were:
    The world had thrust us from its heart,
    And God from out His care:
    And the iron gin that waits for Sin
    Had caught us in its snare.

    III

    In Debtors' Yard the stones are hard,
    And the dripping wall is high,
    So it was there he took the air
    Beneath the leaden sky,
    And by each side a warder walked,
    For fear the man might die.

    Or else he sat with those who watched
    His anguish night and day;
    Who watched him when he rose to weep,
    And when he crouched to pray;
    Who watched him lest himself should rob
    Their scaffold of its prey.

    The Governor was strong upon
    The Regulations Act:
    The Doctor said that Death was but
    A scientific fact:
    And twice a day the Chaplain called,
    And left a little tract.

    And twice a day he smoked his pipe,
    And drank his quart of beer:
    His soul was resolute, and held
    No hiding-place for fear;
    He often said that he was glad
    The hangman's day was near.

    But why he said so strange a thing
    No warder dared to ask:

    For he to whom a watcher's doom
    Is given as his task,
    Must set a lock upon his lips,
    And make his face a mask.

    Or else he might be moved, and try
    To comfort or console:
    And what should Human Pity do
    Pent up in Murderers' Hole?
    What word of grace in such a place
    Could help a brother's soul?

    With slouch and swing around the ring
    We trod the Fools' Parade!
    We did not care: we knew we were
    The Devils' Own Brigade:
    And shaven head and feet of lead
    Make a merry masquerade.

    We tore the tarry rope to shreds
    With blunt and bleeding nails;
    We rubbed the doors, and scrubbed the floors,
    And cleaned the shining rails:
    And, rank by rank, we soaped the plank,
    And clattered with the pails.

    We sewed the sacks, we broke the stones,
    We turned the dusty drill:
    We banged the tins, and bawled the hymns,
    And sweated on the mill:
    But in the heart of every man
    Terror was lying still
    .

    So still it lay that every day
    Crawled like a weed-clogged wave:
    And we forgot the bitter lot
    That waits for fool and knave,
    Till once, as we tramped in from work,
    We passed an open grave.

    With yawning mouth the horrid hole
    Gaped for a living thing;
    The very mud cried out for blood
    To the thirsty asphalte ring:
    And we knew that ere one dawn grew fair
    The fellow had to swing.

    Right in we went, with soul intent
    On Death and Dread and Doom:
    The hangman, with his little bag,
    Went shuffling through the gloom:
    And I trembled as I groped my way
    Into my numbered tomb.

    That night the empty corridors
    Were full of forms of Fear,
    And up and down the iron town
    Stole feet we could not hear,
    And through the bars that hide the stars
    White faces seemed to peer.

    He lay as one who lies and dreams
    In a pleasant meadow-land,
    The watchers watched him as he slept,
    And could not understand
    How one could sleep so sweet a sleep
    With a hangman close at hand.

    But there is no sleep when men must weep
    Who never yet have wept:
    So we ­ the fool, the fraud, the knave ­
    That endless vigil kept,
    And through each brain on hands of pain
    Another's terror crept.

    Alas! it is a fearful thing
    To feel another's guilt!

    For, right within, the sword of Sin
    Pierced to its poisoned hilt,
    And as molten lead were the tears we shed
    For the blood we had not spilt.

    The warders with their shoes of felt
    Crept by each padlocked door,
    And peeped and saw, with eyes of awe,
    Gray figures on the floor,
    And wondered why men knelt to pray
    Who never prayed before.

    All through the night we knelt and prayed,
    Mad mourners of a corse!

    The troubled plumes of midnight shook
    Like the plumes upon a hearse:
    And as bitter wine upon a sponge
    Was the savour of Remorse.

    The gray cock crew, the red cock crew,
    But never came the day:
    And crooked shapes of Terror crouched,
    In the corners where we lay:

    And each evil sprite that walks by night
    Before us seemed to play.

    They glided past, the glided fast,
    Like travellers through a mist:
    They mocked the moon in a rigadoon
    Of delicate turn and twist,
    And with formal pace and loathsome grace
    The phantoms kept their tryst.

    With mop and mow, we saw them go,
    Slim shadows hand in hand:
    About, about, in ghostly rout
    They trod a saraband:
    And the damned grotesques made arabesques,
    Like the wind upon the sand!

    With the pirouettes of marionettes,
    They tripped on pointed tread:
    But with flutes of Fear they filled the ear,
    As their grisly masque they led,
    And loud they sang, and long they sang,
    For they sang to wake the dead.

    "Oho!" they cried, "the world is wide,
    But fettered limbs go lame!
    And once, or twice, to throw the dice
    Is a gentlemanly game,
    But he
    does not win who plays with Sin
    In the secret House of Shame."

    No things of air these antics were,
    That frolicked with such glee:
    To men whose lives were held in gyves,
    And whose feet might not go free,
    Ah! wounds of Christ!
    they were living things,
    Most terrible to see.

    Around, around, they waltzed and wound;
    Some wheeled in smirking pairs;
    With the mincing step of a demirep
    Some sidled up the stairs:
    And with subtle sneer, and fawning leer,
    Each helped us at our prayers.

    The morning wind began to moan,
    But still the night went on:
    Through its giant loom the web of gloom
    Crept till each thread was spun:
    And, as we prayed, we grew afraid
    Of the Justice of the Sun.

    The moaning wind went wandering round
    The weeping prison wall:
    Till like a wheel of turning steel
    We felt the minutes crawl:

    O moaning wind! what had we done
    To have such a seneschal?

    At last I saw the shadowed bars,
    Like a lattice wrought in lead,
    Move right across the whitewashed wall
    That faced my three-plank bed,
    And I knew that somewhere in the world
    God's dreadful dawn was red.

    At six o'clock we cleaned our cells,
    At seven all was still,
    But the sough and swing of a mighty wing
    The prison seemed to fill,
    For the Lord of Death with icy breath

    Had entered in to kill.

    He did not pass in purple pomp,
    Nor ride a moon-white steed.
    Three yards of cord and a sliding board
    Are all the gallows' need:
    So with rope of shame the Herald came
    To do the secret deed.

    We were as men who through a fen
    Of filthy darkness grope:
    We did not dare to breathe a prayer,
    Or to give our anguish scope:
    Something was dead in each of us,
    And what was dead was Hope.

    For Man's grim Justice goes its way
    And will not swerve aside:
    It slays the weak, it slays the strong,
    It has a deadly stride:
    With iron heel it slays the strong
    The monstrous parricide!

    We waited for the stroke of eight:
    Each tongue was thick with thirst:
    For the stroke of eight is the stroke of Fate

    That makes a man accursed,
    And Fate will use a running noose
    For the best man and the worst.

    We had no other thing to do,
    Save to wait for the sign to come:
    So, like things of stone in a valley lone,
    Quiet we sat and dumb:

    But each man's heart beat thick and quick,
    Like a madman on a drum!

    With sudden shock the prison-clock
    Smote on the shivering air,
    And from all the gaol rose up a wail
    Of impotent despair,
    Like the sound the frightened marshes hear
    From some leper in his lair.

    And as one sees most fearful things
    In the crystal of a dream,

    We saw the greasy hempen rope
    Hooked to the blackened beam,
    And heard the prayer the hangman's snare
    Strangled into a scream.

    And all the woe that moved him so
    That he gave that bitter cry,
    And the wild regrets, and the bloody sweats,
    None knew so well as I:
    For he who lives more lives than one
    More deaths that one must die.

    IV

    There is no chapel on the day
    On which they hang a man:
    The Chaplain's heart is far too sick,
    Or his face is far too wan,
    Or there is that written in his eyes
    Which none should look upon.

    So they kept us close till nigh on noon,
    And then they rang the bell,
    And the warders with their jingling keys
    Opened each listening cell,
    And down the iron stair we tramped,
    Each from his separate Hell.

    Out into God's sweet air we went,
    But not in wonted way,
    For this man's face was white with fear,
    And that man's face was gray,
    And I never saw sad men who looked
    So wistfully at the day.

    I never saw sad men who looked
    With such a wistful eye
    Upon that little tent of blue
    We prisoners called the sky,
    And at every happy cloud that passed
    In such strange freedom by.

    But there were those amongst us all
    Who walked with downcast head,
    And knew that, had each got his due,
    They should have died instead:
    He had but killed a thing that lived,
    Whilst they had killed the dead.

    For he who sins a second time
    Wakes a dead soul to pain,
    And draws it from its spotted shroud
    And makes it bleed again,
    And makes it bleed great gouts of blood,
    And makes it bleed in vain!

    Like ape or clown, in monstrous garb
    With crooked arrows starred,
    Silently we went round and round
    The slippery asphalte yard;
    Silently we went round and round,
    And no man spoke a word.

    Silently we went round and round,
    And through each hollow mind
    The Memory of dreadful things
    Rushed like a dreadful wind,

    And Horror stalked before each man,
    And Terror crept behind.

    The warders strutted up and down,
    And watched their herd of brutes,
    Their uniforms were spick and span,
    And they wore their Sunday suits,
    But we knew the work they had been at,
    By the quicklime on their boots.

    For where a grave had opened wide,
    There was no grave at all:
    Only a stretch of mud and sand
    By the hideous prison-wall,
    And a little heap of burning lime,
    That the man should have his pall.

    For he has a pall, this wretched man,
    Such as few men can claim:
    Deep down below a prison-yard,
    Naked, for greater shame,
    He lies, with fetters on each foot,
    Wrapt in a sheet of flame!

    And all the while the burning lime
    Eats flesh and bone away,
    It eats the brittle bones by night,
    And the soft flesh by day,

    It eats the flesh and bone by turns,
    But it eats the heart alway.

    For three long years they will not sow
    Or root or seedling there:
    For three long years the unblessed spot
    Will sterile be and bare,
    And look upon the wondering sky
    With unreproachful stare.

    They think a murderer's heart would taint
    Each simple seed they sow.
    It is not true! God's kindly earth
    Is kindlier than men know,
    And the red rose would but glow more red,
    The white rose whiter blow.

    Out of his mouth a red, red rose!
    Out of his heart a white!
    For who can say by what strange way,
    Christ brings His will to light,
    Since the barren staff the pilgrim bore
    Bloomed in the great Pope's sight?

    But neither milk-white rose nor red
    May bloom in prison air;
    The shard, the pebble, and the flint,
    Are what they give us there:
    For flowers have been known to heal
    A common man's despair.

    So never will wine-red rose or white,
    Petal by petal, fall
    On that stretch of mud and sand that lies
    By the hideous prison-wall,
    To tell the men who tramp the yard
    That God's Son died for all.

    Yet though the hideous prison-wall
    Still hems him round and round,
    And a spirit may not walk by night
    That is with fetters bound,
    And a spirit may but weep that lies
    In such unholy ground,

    He is at peace ­ this wretched man ­
    At peace, or will be soon:
    There is no thing to make him mad,
    Nor does Terror walk at noon,

    For the lampless Earth in which he lies
    Has neither Sun nor Moon.

    They hanged him as a beast is hanged:
    They did not even toll
    A requiem that might have brought
    Rest to his startled soul,
    But hurriedly they took him out,
    And hid him in a hole.

    The warders stripped him of his clothes,
    And gave him to the flies:
    They mocked the swollen purple throat,
    And the stark and staring eyes:
    And with laughter loud they heaped the shroud
    In which the convict lies.

    The Chaplain would not kneel to pray
    By his dishonoured grave:
    Nor mark it with that blessed Cross
    That Christ for sinners gave,
    Because the man was one of those
    Whom Christ came down to save.

    Yet all is well; he has but passed
    To Life's appointed bourne:
    And alien tears will fill for him
    Pity's long-broken urn,
    For his mourners be outcast men,
    And outcasts always mourn.

    V

    I know not whether Laws be right,
    Or whether Laws be wrong;

    All that we know who lie in gaol
    Is that the wall is strong;
    And that each day is like a year,
    A year whose days are long.

    But this I know, that every Law
    That men have made for Man,
    Since first Man took His brother's life,
    And the sad world began,
    But straws the wheat and saves the chaff
    With a most evil fan.

    This too I know ­ and wise it were
    If each could know the same ­
    That every prison that men build
    Is built with bricks of shame,

    And bound with bars lest Christ should see
    How men their brothers maim.

    With bars they blur the gracious moon,
    And blind the goodly sun:
    And they do well to hide their Hell,
    For in it things are done
    That Son of things nor son of Man
    Ever should look upon!

    The vilest deeds like poison weeds
    Bloom well in prison-air:
    It is only what is good in Man
    That wastes and withers there:
    Pale Anguish keeps the heavy gate,
    And the warder is Despair.

    For they starve the little frightened child
    Till it weeps both night and day:
    And they scourge the weak, and flog the fool,
    And gibe the old and gray,
    And some grow mad, and all grow bad,
    And none a word may say.

    Each narrow cell in which we dwell
    Is a foul and dark latrine,
    And the fetid breath of living Death
    Chokes up each grated screen,
    And all, but Lust, is turned to dust

    In Humanity's machine.

    The brackish water that we drink
    Creeps with a loathsome slime,
    And the bitter bread they weigh in scales
    Is full of chalk and lime,
    And Sleep will not lie down, but walks
    Wild-eyed, and cries to Time.

    But though lean Hunger and green Thirst
    Like asp with adder fight,
    We have little care of prison fare,
    For what chills and kills outright
    Is that every stone one lifts by day
    Becomes one's heart by night.

    With midnight always in one's heart,
    And twilight in one's cell,
    We turn the crank, or tear the rope,
    Each in his separate Hell,
    And the silence is more awful far
    Than the sound of a brazen bell.

    And never a human voice comes near
    To speak a gentle word:
    And the eye that watches through the door
    Is pitiless and hard:
    And by all forgot, we rot and rot,
    With soul and body marred.

    And thus we rust Life's iron chain
    Degraded and alone:
    And some men curse, and some men weep,
    And some men make no moan:
    But God's eternal Laws are kind
    And break the heart of stone.

    And every human heart that breaks,
    In prison-cell or yard,
    Is as that broken box that gave
    Its treasure to the Lord,
    And filled the unclean leper's house
    With the scent of costliest nard.

    Ah! happy they whose hearts can break
    And peace of pardon win!

    How else may man make straight his plan
    And cleanse his soul from Sin?

    How else but through a broken heart
    May Lord Christ enter in?

    And he of the swollen purple throat,
    And the stark and staring eyes,
    Waits for the holy hands that took
    The Thief to Paradise;
    And a broken and a contrite heart
    The Lord will not despise.

    The man in red who reads the Law
    Gave him three weeks of life,
    Three little weeks in which to heal
    His soul of his soul's strife,
    And cleanse from every blot of blood
    The hand that held the knife.

    And with tears of blood he cleansed the hand,
    The hand that held the steel:
    For only blood can wipe out blood,

    And only tears can heal:
    And the crimson stain that was of Cain
    Became Christ's snow-white seal.

    VI

    In Reading gaol by Reading town
    There is a pit of shame,
    And in it lies a wretched man
    Eaten by teeth of flame,
    In a burning winding-sheet he lies,
    And his grave has got no name.

    And there, till Christ call forth the dead,
    In silence let him lie:

    No need to waste the foolish tear,
    Or heave the windy sigh:
    The man had killed the thing he loved,
    And so he had to die.

    And all men kill the thing they love,
    By all let this be heard,
    Some do it with a bitter look,
    Some with a flattering word,
    The coward does it with a kiss,
    The brave man with a sword!

     

    May 18

    romeo y julieta

    levaba un cartel pegado en la frente:

    'se busca perrito caliente que me quiera ciegamente'

    levaba 10 dias llorando y apenas sin comer

     

    romeo y julieta no eran de este planeta

    pero si te sirve de consuelo:

    yo busco perrita caliente que me quiera locamente

     

     

    ...

     

    +=?  ermm something is wrong with my math?

    May 11

    Cita con Angeles

    Cita con ángeles

    appointment with angels

    BY sILVIO rodriguez

     

     

    Desde los tiempos más remotos                       Since the most ancient times

    vuelan los ángeles guardianes,                 the guardian angels fly,

    siempre celosos de sus votos                    always jealous in their vows

    contra atropellos y desmanes.                  against injustices and excesses.

    Junto a las cunas infantiles,                                 Near the cradles of babies,

    junto los tristes moribundos,                            near the sad and dying,

    cuentan que velan los gentiles                        they say that there guard the gentles

    seres con alas de otro mundo.            beings with wings from another world.

    Cuando este ángel surca el cielo,                When this angel crosses the sky,
    no hay nada que se le asemeje.                     there is nothing that resembles to him.
    El fin de su apurado vuelo                         The aim of his hurried flight
    es la sentencia de un hereje.                                is the sentencing of a heretic.
    No se distraiga ni demore,                                   Do not get distracted or delayed,
    todo es ahora inoportuno.                              everything is now inopportune.
    Va rumbo al campo de las flores               He is going to the field of the flowers
    donde la hoguera espera a Bruno.
    1                        where the stake waits for Bruno.
    1

    Se lanza un ángel de la altura,              An angel from up high throws himself down,
    caída libre que da frío.                         the free fall that makes him cold.
    La orden de su jefatura                               The order of his headquarters
    es descender hasta Dos Ríos.                is to descend down to Two Rivers.
    Es 19 y también mayo,                                   
    It is 19th and also May,
    monte de espuma y madre sierra,
                  mount of foam and mother mountain,
    cuando otro ángel a caballo                         when another angel on a horse
    cae “con los pobres de la tierra”.
    2                        falls “with the poor men of Earth”.
    2

     

    Dicen que al filo de la una                            They say that on the edge of one
    un angelote compasivo                              a compassionate angel
    pasó delante de la luna,                               
    bypassed the moon,
    sobrevolando los olivos.                               
    flying over the olive trees.
    Y cuentan que con mala maña              
    And they say that with ill will
    fue tiroteado su abanico,                            
    his fan was shot,
    justo a la hora que en España
                            at the same time when in Spain
    se nos mataba a Federico.
    3                               they killed Federico.
    3

     

    Un bello arcángel aletea                          A beautiful archangel flutters
    junto a un gran pájaro de hierro.             
    near a great iron bird.
    Procura que un hombre lo vea                 
    He tries to catch a man’s attention
    para ahuyentar cien mil destierros.
                To drive away one hundred thousand exiles.
    Pero el arcángel se sofoca                         But the archangel chokes
    y un ala azul se le lastima                           
    and his blue wing gets hurt
    y el ave negra abre la boca                           
    and the black bird opens its mouth
    cuando atraviesan Hiroshima.
    4                 when they surpass Hiroshima.
    4

    Dejando un surco luminoso                                 Leaving a luminous groove
    por sobre Memphis, Tennessee,                 over Memphis, Tennessee,
    pasó volando presuroso                               
    hastily flew by
    un ser alado en frenesí.
                                   a winged angel in frenzy.
    Iba vistiéndose de luto,                                    He was dressed in mourning clothes,
    iba llorando el querubín                                 
    the cherubim was crying
    e iba contando los minutos
                                 and was counting the minutes
    de Dios y Martin Luther King.
    5              of God and Martin Luther King
    5

     

    El ángel pasa bajo un puente,                        The angel passed under a bridge,
    después rodea un rascacielos.                Later surrounds a skyscraper.
    Parque Central, lleno de gente,                     Central Park, full of people,
    no se da cuenta de su vuelo.                           They don’t even notice his flight.
    Cuánta utopía será rota                                  How much of utopia will be broken
    y cuánta imaginación                                         and how much imagination?
    cuando a la puerta del Dakota             when at the door of Dakota
    las balas derriben a John.
    6                          the bullets knock down John
    6

     

    Septiembre aúlla todavía                            September still howls
    su doble saldo escalofriante.                          its double chilling balance.
    Todo sucede un mismo día                          Everything happens on the same day
    gracias a un odio semejante.                              thanks to a similar hatred.
    Y el mismo ángel que allá en Chile                       And the same angel that back in Chile
    vio bombardear al presidente,                  saw the President being bombed,
    ve las dos torres con sus miles               sees the two towers with their thousands
    cayendo inolvidablemente.
    7                               falling unforgettably.
    7

     

    Desesperados, los querubes                         Desperated the cherubims
    toman los cielos de la tierra                           
    take the skies of the Earth
    y con sus lápices de nubes
                              and with their cloud pencils
    pintan adioses a las guerras.                         
    paint goodbyes to the wars.
    El mundo llena los balcones                           
    The world fills the balconies
    y exclama al fin: esta es mi lucha,
                  and exclaims at last: this is my fight,
    pero el señor de los cañones                                  but the lord of the cannons
    no mira al cielo ni lo escucha.                     Doesn’t look to the sky nor listens to it

    Pobres los ángeles urgentes                                 
    Poor urgent angels
    que nunca llegan a salvarnos.                  
    that never get to save us.
    ¿Será que son incompetents
                              Is it that they are incompetent
    o que no hay forma de ayudarnos?                
    or that there is no way to help us?
    Para evitarles más dolores
                                in order to avoid them pain
    y cuentas del sicoanalista,                           
    and bills from the psychoanalyst,
    seamos un tilín mejores
                                 lets be a little bit better people
    y mucho menos egoístas.                                
    and a lot less egotistical.

     

     

     

     

     

    1.- Giordano Bruno, philosopher condemned because of his theories by the Inquisition (Court of the Saint Office). He died burned at the stake in Campo dei Fiori, Field of the Flowers, the 17th of February of 1600.

     

    2.-José Martí, the apostle of Cuban Independence and National Hero,  he died during combat in Two Rivers during May 19th, 1895.

     

    3.-Federico García Lorca, poet and Spanish dramatist, died shot by pro-Franco troops in August 19th, 1936 in Granada at the beginning of the Spanish Civil War.

     

    4.-August 6th, 1945 United States causes the death of one hundred thousand people, when they drop the atomic bomb in the Japanese city of Hiroshima.

     

    5.-Martin Luther King, Jr., leader of the movement for the racial equality in the United States, was assassinated on April 4th, 1968 in Memphis, Tennessee.

     

    6.- John Lennon, musician and composer member of the British quartet "The Beatles", was assassinated in the entrance of his building the Dakota on December 10th, 1980.

     

    7.-September 11th, 1973 a Coup d'etat financed by the United States causes the fall of the government of the Popular Unity Party in Chile and the death of its president Salvador Allende. The same day in 2001 during a terrorist attempt thousand of people died in the United States when two crashing airplanes destroyed the Twin Towers of New York.

     

     

    Composed February 10th, 2003

     

    10 de febrero, 2003

    Malva Rodríguez: ánimos
    Silvio Rodríguez: letra, música, voces, guitarras, armónica y teclado
    Niurka González: flauta y clarinete
    Frank Fernández: teclado (arpa céltica)
    Ilmar López Gavilán: violín
    Leo Brouwer: guitarra
    Chucho Valdés: teclado (órgano)
    Juan Formell: contrabajo eléctrico
    Tata Güines: tumbadoras
    Vicente Feliú: coros
    Noel Nicola: coros
    Amaury Pérez: coros

     

    May 04

    Candil de Nieve

    Pablo Milanés


    Candil de Nieve


    by Raúl Torres - Pablo Milanés

    Necesitas una fuga, catatónica, nocturna, un viento breve
    Al edén de un sábado, donde un ave miope te espera leve,
    De las malas colisiones, no te puedes escapar, candil de nieve,
    Y es que si lo ves volando sobre el labio de otra flor
    Te encolerizas, te ruborizas candil de nieve.

    Enciéndete clavel, cuando amanecer veas la razón
    De lo que te faltó, luego no alcanzó, más tu corazón.
    No pienso que sufrir es aquella opción
    Que nos dio algún dios para salvarnos;
    No apagues el candil
    O la nieve te hunde en el centro del dolor.


    Necesitas una fuga hacia un mundo verdadero, de locura
    Y cuando vengan por ti no sólo ha de deslumbrarte la hermosura.
    Otras lágrimas te esperan cual angustias pasajeras en tu camino
    Y otras musas más ligeras pintarán y tocarán otro destino
    Sal a buscarlas candil de nieve.

    Enciéndete clavel, cuando amanecer veas la razón
    De lo que se te dio, luego no alcanzó más tu corazón.
    No pienso que sufrir, es aquella opción
    Que nos dio algún dios para salvarnos.
    No apagues el candil
    O la nieve te hunde en el centro del dolor.

    May 03

    I'm no angel but at least I can smile

    SIMPLE PLAN LYRICS

    "Perfect"

    Hey dad look at me
    Think back and talk to me
    Did I grow up according to plan?
    And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
    But it hurts when you disapprove all along

    And now I try hard to make it
    I just want to make you proud
    I'm never gonna be good enough for you
    I can't pretend that
    I'm alright
    And you can't change me

    'Cuz we lost it all
    Nothing lasts forever
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect
    Now it's just too late and
    We can't go back
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect

    I try not to think
    About the pain I feel inside
    Did you know you used to be my hero?
    All the days you spent with me
    Now seem so far away
    And it feels like you don't care anymore

    And now I try hard to make it
    I just want to make you proud
    I'm never gonna be good enough for you
    I can't stand another fight
    And nothing's alright

    'Cuz we lost it all
    Nothing lasts forever
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect
    Now it's just too late and
    We can't go back
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect

    Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
    Nothing's gonna make this right again
    Please don't turn your back
    I can't believe it's hard
    Just to talk to you
    But you don't understand

    'Cuz we lost it all
    Nothing lasts forever
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect
    Now it's just too late and
    We can't go back
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect

    'Cuz we lost it all
    Nothing lasts forever
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect
    Now it's just too late and
    We can't go back
    I'm sorry
    I can't be perfect

    April 21

    In Dreams

    In Dreams
     
    When the cold of Winter comes
    Starless night will cover day
    In the veiling of the sun
    We will walk in bitter rain
    But in dreams
    I still hear your name
    And in dreams
    We will meet again
    When the seas and mountains fall
    And we come to end of days
    In the dark I hear a call
    Calling me there
    I will go there
    And back again
    April 09

    Memorable Quotes from Ice Age: The Meltdown (2006)

     
    Memorable Quotes from
    Ice Age: The Meltdown (2006)

    Ellie: HEY!
    [Ellie falls out of the tree]
    Manfred: [incredulous] You really think she's the girl for me?
    Sid: Sure. She's tons of fun, you're no fun. She completes you.
    --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
    Sid: Maybe we could rapidly evolve into water creatures.
    Diego: That's genius Sid.
    Sid: Call me "Squid"!
    --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
    Sid: We're gonna live!
    [Water rises up to his ankles]
    Sid: We're gonna die!
    --------------------------------------------------------------------------------
    Eddie: What if we're the last animals left alive? We'll have to repopulate the earth!
    Crash: How are we supposed to do that? Everyone here is either a dude or our sister!
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    Sid: Manny, who do you like better, me or Diego?
    Manfred: Diego. No contest.
    Ellie: Manny, you can't pick favorites with your kids!
    Manfred: He's not my kid. He's not even my dog. If my dog had a kid, and that kid had a pet, that would be Sid.
    Sid: Manny, can I have a dog?
    Manfred: No
    Sid: Ellie, can I have a dog?
    Ellie: Sure, sweetie.
    Manfred: Ellie, we have to be consistent with them!
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    Dung Beetle Dad: Do we have to bring this crap along? I'm sure there's a bunch of other crap where we're going!
    Diatryma Mom: Hey! This was a gift from my mother!
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    (after being defeated by two possums)
    Diego: If anyone asks, there were fifty of 'em... And, uh... They were rattlesnakes.
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    Sid: Miscreants? Diego, they are possums.
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    Traffic Vulture: Parents: Please do not leave your children unattended. All unattended children will be eaten.
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    Diego: That ice is lookin' pretty thin.
    Sid: Sure it's thin. But it's strong enough to hold a 10 tonne mammoth and a 9 tonne possum.
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    Manfred: Hey, kids. Who said you could torture the sloth?
    Diego: Manny, don't squash their creativity.
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    Sid: Manny, Diego, my bad mammals-jammmals. Care to give a sloth a hand?
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    Manfred: Don't listen to him. Fast Tony would sell his own mother for a grape.
    Fast Tony: Are you making an offer?
    April 08

    Nubes

    Nubes - Clouds
     
    (scroll down for english)
     
    no le abras la puerta a tu soledad
    la ciudad esta muerta pero que mas da
    no jures por la tempestad
    aunque tu luna se este apagando
    las nubes no se iran no se iran
    solo se quedan adentro y llorando
    y ahora por que rezas en tu viejo altar
    no bajes la cabeza
    no mires atras
     
    no jures por la tempestad
    aunque tu luna se este apagando
    las nubes no se iran no se iran
    solo se quedan adentro y llorando
    adentro y llorando
     
    do not open the door to your loneliness
    the city is dead but it does it matter anymore?
    don't swear by the storm
    even if your moon is fading
    the clouds wont go
    they just stay inside and crying
    and why are you praying now
    in your old althar
    don't put your head down
    do not look back

    don't swear by the storm
    even if your moon is fading
    the clouds wont go
    they just stay inside and crying
    inside and crying

     
     la esperanza es lo ultimo que se pierde. Yo he perdido la secreta esperanza de que vinieras, de que vinieras antes de lo que pensaba. Te pido que resistas y esperes pero por dentro me muero de ganas de ganas de tenerte ahora. Que hago con la esperanza perdida? Que hago si era lo que me mantenia mas viva?

    ...

    they should have bigger broken hearts
    April 07

    Believe...

    "If you will call your troubles experiences, and remember that every experience develops some latent force within you, you will grow vigorous and happy, however adverse your circumstances may seem to be"
     
     
    If I repeat it enough will I be able to believe it? If I repeat it enough will life be liveable? Im so sick and tired of being sick and tired. So tired of being lovesick, of reaching out at night and not finding your body there. I miss you more than I can bear. I really need you today but I'm trying to hold on...8 days more...
    April 03

    Baptized - Lenny Kravitz

    Baptized

    I don’t want to look around
    And be turned to stone
    All my darkest days awoken
    I’m looking for a new way
    Can't make it on my own
    Lead me to a place wide open

    I need a love that takes me higher
    So high I’m never coming down


    I don’t want to know emptiness
    Take me down to the water
    Wanna be baptized in your love

    Far away from the loneliness
    Take my heart and wash away the fear
    Let me be baptized in your love


    Everybody’s going down
    They end up all alone
    Far too many words unspoken
    I know I gotta be there
    I’m ready to be shown
    The path of righteousness unbroken

    I need a love that takes me higher
    So high I’m never coming down

    I don’t want to know emptiness
    Take me down to the water
    Wanna be baptized in your love

    Far away from the loneliness
    Take my heart and wash away the fear
    Let me be baptized in your love

    I would be a fool to let you go
    With you I’m reborn
    I’m no longer torn
    Yeah
    I refuse to lose my heart and soul
    I have to be strong

    I don’t want to know emptiness
    Take me down to the water
    Wanna be baptized in your love

    Far away from the loneliness
    Take my heart and wash away the fear
    Let me be baptized in your love

    Baptized, baptized
    Wanna be baptized in your love

    I don’t want to know emptiness
    Take me down to the water
    Wanna be baptized in your love (wanna be...)

    Far away from the loneliness
    Take my heart and wash away the fear
    Wanna be baptized in your love

    I don’t want to know emptiness
    Take me down to the water
    Wanna be baptized in your love

    Far away from the loneliness
    Take my heart and wash away the fear
    Wanna be baptized in your love

     

    April 01

    Volcano - Damien Rice

    Just keeping the pace with ana....
     

    volcano

    don't hold yourself like that you'll hurt your knees
    i kissed your mouth & back that's all i need
    don't build your world around volcanoes melt you down
    what i am to you is not real
    what i am to you you do not need
    what i am to you is not what you mean to me
    you give me miles and miles of mountains
    and i’ll ask for the sea
    don't throw yourself like that in front of me
    i kissed your mouth your back is that all you need?
    don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down
    what i am to you is not real
    what i am to you you do not need
    what i am to you is not what you mean to me
    you give me miles and miles of mountains
    and i’ll ask for the sea
    what i give to you is just what i’m going through
    this is nothing new no no just another phase of finding
    what i really need is what makes me bleed
    and like a new disease she’s still too you to treat
    volcanoes melt me down
    she’s still too young
    i kissed your mouth
    you do not need me
    March 31

    Silly Rabbit....meh just a convo...meaningless for many


    When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:40 PM):
    silly rabbit at one
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:40 PM):
    silly rabbit at  two
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:40 PM):
    silly rabbit at three
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:41 PM):
    sold to the lizard in green
     
    ... says (8:41 PM):
    silly rabbit ticks are for kids
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:41 PM):
    ok
     
    ...says (8:41 PM):
    but i'll take it for green
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:41 PM):
    then ill keep the silly rabbit
    .
    .
    .
    When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:42 PM):
    do u believe in soulmates?
     
    ...says (8:42 PM):
    yes i do, don't tell anyone I have meat mine
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:42 PM):
    lol
     
    ... says (8:43 PM):
    it's not my wife
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:43 PM):
    i hope thats met and not "made meat of her"
     
    ... says (8:43 PM):
     lol
    .
    .
    .
    When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:45 PM):
    then i guess u cant answer
    .
    .
    .
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:45 PM):
    hmm...wait what game r u playing?
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:46 PM):
    lesson # 1 - silly rabitts are not silly
    .
    .
    .
    ... says (8:50 PM):
    I know her well, I want to be with her but i can't
     
    ....says (8:51 PM):
    I' am a bad husband
     
    When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:51 PM):
    maybe u should just stop being a husband
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:51 PM):
    i met the one
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:51 PM):
    but he doesnt kno yet
     
    ... says (8:52 PM):
    you got me on that. I can't see what I really want
     
    When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:53 PM):
    i just hope that u dunn say someday
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:53 PM):
    someday someday someday
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:53 PM):
    ppl keep saying someday
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:53 PM):
    but guess what?
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:53 PM):
    they run out of somedays
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:53 PM):
    thats why im making my someday today
     
    ... says (8:54 PM):
    your to young to know what someday is
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:54 PM):
    thats why i left everything behind
     
     When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:54 PM):
    thats why this is the path im going
     
    When the whole world seems to fall  you are the only one that prevents it says (8:55 PM):
    oh and yes thanx tal u changed my life

    just a few more left...and then the best....

    22.25 h

     

    "I know it isn't long enough, but no ammount of time shorter than forever could be long enough" T.B.

    March 30

    Deus, ego resurgo

    Eloi, Eloi, lama sabacthani? Eadem mutata resurgo. Minä elän.

    Naive...a dicc defination, just in case u needed it ;)

    na·ive [ naa v ] (comparative na·iv·er, superlative na·iv·est) or na·ïve [ naa v ] (comparative na·ïv·er, superlative na·ïv·est) or na·ïf [ naa f ] (comparative na·ïf·er, superlative na·ïf·est)


    adjective 
    Definitions:
     
    1. extremely simple and trusting: having or showing an excessively simple and trusting view of the world and human nature, often as a result of youth and inexperience

    2. not shrewd or sophisticated: showing a lack of sophistication and subtlety or of critical judgment and analysis
    a politically naive statement

    3. artless: admirably straightforward and uncomplicated or refreshingly innocent and unaffected

    4. arts rejecting sophisticated techniques in art: not using the conventional styles and techniques of trained artists, e.g. in the treatment of perspective or light and shade

    5. science not previously experimented on: not previously used in any scientific tests or experiments or not having previously used a particular drug
    naive laboratory mice

    [Mid-17th century. < French naïve, feminine of naïf < Latin nativus "born"]

    na·ive·lyadv
    na·ive·nessn